Wednesday, December 11, 2013

november pages

I had a terrible time shooting
this spread
dear reader..

it was almost as if it did not want to be


it came up shiny...
so I gave it a coat of matte gel medium...
then the rain came 
and I was forced to use the flash...
which made it shinier!
and now with the sun shining
the glare is worse...

I finally took out my phone, shot it
and sent them to iphoto...

to understand this spread I have a little story for you...
I was asked to write a little something that I was grateful for
for Thanksgiving...
This is what I wrote and this is what my pages are about..

Last year on the 4th of July, we hosted a BBQ for my husband’s brother and wife. They wanted to pick up a load of gravel that we had left over from our garden project. I remember watching the brothers sweating, working to load it up into the pickup truck. It was a hard job but they were both healthy and strong. They were laughing, talking, teasing the way brothers do. It was a joyous day… good food, love and warm weather. But by November, a week after Thanksgiving, my brother in law was dead. Lung cancer had carved his name on his head stone. My thanks and overwhelming gratitude is for our health, for the aliveness that flows through me,  my husband, and is never taken for granted. I give thanks for the contrast, which makes my life sweeter and richer every day, and I know that my brother in law would be glad in it.  

ingredients: collage papers, acrylic paint, Prismacolors, 

the cross, was an important symbol for my BIL, Terry...
for me.. I see it as a plus or a positive 

I cannot believe that it is almost time for
my annual
Buon Natale post...

I will make sure I leave that with you
before I take some
time off for the Holidays...

I am grateful too




Sophie Munns said...

How very sad and poignant this memory... and i love your tribute Cat!
Being grateful for the health whilst we have it is tremendously important.
Best for you as you prepare for the season upon us now!

Sophie Munns said...


rivergardenstudio said...

Oh Cat, this story is so sad but your tribute is beautiful and your thankfulness humble. Take care and stay warm.

Anonymous said...

A hard one to write, even harder to feel...So sorry. But a loving tribute. xox

Blue Sky Dreaming said...

This is so beautiful and sad ... the colors, scratching and shapes speak of sorrow. A tremendous loss ... best thoughts to you and your family.

Caterina Giglio said...

Hi Sophie! Thanks for stopping by, glad you liked the tribute... I certainly give thanks for good health.. sending back xo

Roxanne, yes, so very sad, and in some ways harder to do the anniversary than it was to actually watch someone die.. he is missed.

Hi Corrine, yes thanks so much!

Dear Mary Ann, it was a great way to work out the sorrow, I kept writing him notes and letters in the black cross and then painting it out to rewrite... it was very cathartic... thanks for your good wishes!

Unknown said...

What a beautiful post. Yes; with sadness and I can relate to your words. Good health is everything. It's been a year and a half since I lost my dear husband to cancer. It stripped him of so much. I feel blessed that I was married to the love of my life. The disease can never take that away.

Peaceful thoughts for your BIL and all who loved him.


nancy neva gagliano said...

and me for you!
yes, every every every single day, it's a great big ole PLUS +++++++++++
lovely piece you've written, and lovely too your journal ... shining or not, x0

Sharmon Davidson said...

It's a beautiful and thoughtful tribute to your brother-in-law, Cat. I know that I, for one, am very grateful for you and the positive-ness you bring into my life. Happy holidays, dear Cat! xxoo

Valerianna said...

Oh, it is so intense a contrast to see someone vibrant and strong and then suddenly POOF, they are gone. To live in gratitude with eyes wide open is wise - and I think less painful in the end somehow because we are less in denial, maybe? December blessings to you.

Dorthe said...

Oh dear Caterina,
What a both sad and happy story... that nasty cancer is everywhere, and sometimes it strikes from one week-or one month to another, quickly that the people standing back, don`t even had time to understand what happened.
Your happy part is the joy of the life here and now,- the trying to live for the fullest every day ( even it can be difficult sometime)
and sometimes we are not strong enough to do that!!
Your cross for your BIL, is amazing and so beautiful, dear friend.
Thank you for posting from your heart, and thank you for you!!

Laura said...

I'm so grateful to see your visual expression of the poignant story you shared in the Gratitude Quilt Cat. Thank you for your generous heart, for your honesty… this year's quilt was so full of humanity… it is every year, but somehow this year was deeper, your offering helped to make that possible.

~*~Patty S said...

Dear Cat ~
This life is so fragile and so beautiful and so sad sometimes it can seem impossible to bear...
I am finding it so difficult to find words just now to express what is in my ♥
(((hugs))) to you and yours...thank you for sharing your h♥art!

ArtPropelled said...

What a lovely tribute, Cat. xox

Nathalie Nayer said...

Dear Caterina
When Seth Apter released his new book (The mixed-media artist) last october, you left a comment about my art that made me incredibly happy. 
I have so much work at the hospital right now, so many night shifts and my two daughter’s need so much attention that I didn’t find time to thank you yet.
But today, I finally sat down and wrote a note to everyone of you.
I wish I could answer to every comment that’s been left on my blog since I started it and thank everyone who ‘faved’ an art journal page on my flickr account but if I want to have time left to paint in my journal, it is simply impossible.
That’s also the reason why I don’t have a facebook account, I don’t tweet or never wander on pinterest and all the other gorgeous photo-sharing websites.
Anyway, I am grateful for all the kind words you’ve left. You cannot imagine what a support they are.
Thank you so much.
Nathalie Nayer

Bleubeard and Elizabeth said...

I'm having all kinds of internet woes, but I'm finally online and came to see you.

This spread is quite poignant. Sad and touching as only you can write it. My heart goes out to you and your husband. I'm sure this time of year can be upsetting for him, now. But it was great you had those fond memories.

Have a wonderful rest of the weekend, dear friend.

Caterina Giglio said...

Dear Marilyn, I can only imagine how hard it is for you as I see my SIL suffer so much, they were soul mates and it is heart wrenching to see her grieve. My heart goes out to you and thank you for your kind remarks and understanding... xox

Caterina Giglio said...

neva, so happy to have you stop by... thanks for that, yes it is a bit shinny brite... but there nevertheless! stay warm up in the mitten state!! xx

Hi Sharmon ... thank you so much... we all know what suffering is like, I am glad I can occasionally uplift you! Happy Holidays to you dear one!

Dear Valeriana, YES it is so shocking... and grieving comes in waves and stages... but to be in gratitude, for me makes it all easier to deal with.. x

Thank you Dear Dorthe, a year is such a short time.. but the healing happens in every minute. I am glad you liked the cross, and yes, being in the moment helps.. xoxo


Thanks, Robyn..

Hi Nathalie, so glad you stopped by, and I do understand about social media versus, work, I have to stay balanced about it too or I would never get any work finished for deadlines!

Hi E, so sorry that you are having internet woes again, but so happy you stopped by, ... thank you for your empathy, we miss him, but know that he is always here with us too.. just trying to get used to the change... Have a lovely week! xx

Mirjana Novak Cesar said...

Your tribute is beautiful and I feel for you!
I lost my parents to cancer 5 years ago. They were in their mid 60s. There is hardly a day when I don't think of them and it makes me quite sad knowing they can't see my kids growing up....
Life is so short and you have put it so nicely in your post. We should be grateful for each new day we're given.

Linda Jo said...

Yes, a beautiful tribute. I am sure he would love that you used the cross.... it's what I cling to as well. Life is fleeting... we must treasure each moment... God bless you and your family during this time.

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