Tuesday, February 5, 2019

January Art Journal Pages





January
and it is all about me, 
writing about who I am today..
my gratitude..






aging has been a topic,
as I have let my hair grow white..

and I will tell you
a secret gentle reader..







I love being old..

when I was 5 years old,
I remember getting up and dressing myself..
brushing my teeth with my finger,
because I could not reach up into the cabinet..
sitting on the sink and smoothing my unruly hair with water..
and as I looked into the mirror..
I had this deep sense of 
KNOWING
that old age would be the happiest of years..

the KNOWING SAID.. 
just keep going
it may be hard now, but it will get better..

and so I went out into the back yard/forest to play wildly in the woods..
until noon..
when my mother awoke..

there are some benefits to having an alcoholic for a parent..
one of them is that
you have lots of liberty...










there is a freedom in age...
if you allow it..
there is a wisdom that arises
from so much experience..

When you look at others, be not covetous of what they have, 
because you do not know what they had to negotiate to get to where they are..
we all have our crosses..
some of us just refuse to paint them...
or give in to them..





There are changes with age..
but we did not lament them at 20.. 
why shouldn't we see wrinkles and white hair as gorgeous
texture and color?

Who makes up these rules about age?
what we should wear?
how short or long our hair must be?
What is dignified or not..

inside of me is a 5 year old, with unruly hair..
still puttering out in the yard..
nothing at all has 
changed..

and the 
KNOWING
is still there.



Ingredients: Black gesso, colored pencil, metallic gelatos, paint pens.





So off to the studio I go..
the mad artist is working on
a new Mono Printing video for you on fabric
so stop by on Friday..


we will get messy together!



C4N!

23 comments:

Tammy@T's Daily Treasures said...

I so agree with you. I recently learned that a friend who just turned 50 has started doing some botox. She's also had hair extensions, gotten her eyebrows done, has fake eyelashes and other things that I never thought she would do. And then another friend told me that if I don't do these things then I'm not fashionable. Ha! I have never wanted to follow the rules or be a part of the norm. And I will age gracefully even if I stumble along the way. :) Happy messy creating!

Diva Kreszl said...

Such a thought provoking post, I seem to be in the midst of struggling with the changes I see in the mirror. Always thankful for your perspective and reminder of what is truly important! Love the drawing and look forward to seeing more of your work.

Angela Sopranzi said...

I’ve been practicing doing faces, but haven’t had the nerve to do my own. Why? because the person inside of me is not the person i see in the mirror. I can’t say I love being old, but I sure am happy where I am. (I just wish I didn’t have so many aches and pains!)😩. Love what you did! You always inspire me!

Colleen Ray said...

Early life was not the best of time for me either. I also had an alcoholic parent - my dad. I'm 61 now and happier than I've ever been but, honestly, struggle with the ego of how age has changed me. Your gorgeous head of white hair and your honesty in sharing your life is an inspiration to go deeper still to more self acceptance. Thank you Caterina!

Lynette (NZ) said...

I LOVE this so much - your portrait and also your thoughts. Wonderful. I am inspired to try this myself as a new tradition ♥

Kathleen Sigg said...

What an amazing post. This is my 70th year and I'm hoping it will be my best.

Zom said...

You are a beautiful woman, inside and out.

froebelsternchen said...

I love your impressive self portrait pages and I am totally with you. I am 55 and since one year I am in menopause and got my very first grey hair. And I can tell you that I never felt better than now! Getting older is a pleasure for me!

Big hugs, looking forward to the video!


Susi

tgarrett said...

Such a wonderful post from a wonderful loving sharing artist. It is an honor to call you my friend. xo

Bleubeard and Elizabeth said...

When I was a junior in high school, I played a matron in the drama club play. I bought some silver hair spray to age my hair. My grandmother had this beautiful brown hair and said she was going to put some in her hair because she wanted to have gray hair. I couldn't believe it. I felt SO OLD when I saw myself in the mirror. Ironically, I started getting gray hairs when I was 19 and by 25, was nearly white. It was if that hair spray had decided to make it permanent in my hair.

It is my belief we are as old as we feel. I was really touched by your words and truly impressed by your beautifully done self portrait. You are a wise woman, dear Cat!

BTW, I'll definitely be by on Friday. You had me at fabric and monoprinting!!!

Caterina Giglio said...

Hi Tammy, thanks for the wonderful comment, and I so agree with you! I find it interesting the judgments that others have. Methinks it is really their own personal judgment they extend to us and I am so glad we don't have to live under their heavy rules. Thanks for your comment, and we are in this together friend! xox

Caterina Giglio said...

Hi Diva, thank you so much, dearheart, glad you liked the drawing and the perspective! Big hugs to you!!

Caterina Giglio said...

Dear Angela, I so understand about the aches and pains, I had a terrible accident some years back, so I understand. I work daily to keep my power over them. I completely understand about how the person inside no longer looks like the person outside. I simply determined that since I cannot change it, I would just go with it. Sending you very big hugs, cara! xox

Caterina Giglio said...

Thank you Colleen, I am so glad you are willing to dig deeper. Sorry to hear that we share that trauma in our early life, some good things about it, but most not so good. I have forgiven her, this month she will be dead 3 years and I am at peace with it. I am so glad you are happy at 61 ... we so deserve it!! xo

Caterina Giglio said...

Oh.. Lynette, I sincerely hope you do, it is a wonderful record of how I see myself and looking back on the past years is so enlightening. Thanks always for stopping by and leaving a comment! x

Caterina Giglio said...

Happy 70th Kathleen and I am sure it will be your best year yet!! xo

Caterina Giglio said...
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Caterina Giglio said...

Hi Susi! So happy for you, and glad you are welcoming your aging, it goes so much easier if we just accept it!! Thanks so much for you kind support!! xo

Caterina Giglio said...

Oh Zom, Thank you so much!! You are so kind!! xox

Caterina Giglio said...

Oh, my dear Terry, you make me all misty eyed!! xoxo

Caterina Giglio said...

Thank you so much, Dr. E. and thanks for sharing that story with me, I so believe that consciousness has everything to do with creation. Like you I went grey early, in my 20's.. I had such a concern about it. Now I just embrace it. Thanks always for your wonderful comments, and your most kind support. It means so much to me. x

AgnesTirrito said...

Just getting to read this post...you never disappoint.
Beautiful you. 🌟

Sharmon Davidson said...

I think this is probably my favorite of your journal pages so far! I love your attitude about aging, and wish I could borrow a bit of it! You look beautiful with white hair, not old at all. And you have inspired me to try to age more gracefully, so thank you for that, dear friend! xoxo

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