ciao, dear readers,
it took me quite a while to finish my May journal pages.
this is the anniversary of my brothers death and though I am in a
good frame of mind about it, it still brings up a lot of feelings for me, as I am sure that you understand.
For those of you that are new to my blog, my brother committed suicide shortly after I started blogging. He was an alcoholic and he had recently relapsed and shot himself in the heart.
I dreamed about him.
I have been writing down my dreams for years and working with my dream symbols as a way to communicate with my soul.
In my dream he appears to me in the back yard of my last home, I have just picked up a dead bird and a dying dragon fly. I look sadly at the dead creatures and he walks up to me smiling. He is beautiful, appears young, healthy and happy. I smile at him and tell him he looks good.
I show him the dead and dying creatures and he just shrugs, smiles and waves goodbye.
I woke up feeling so very good...
very peaceful and calm...
as though everything was in perfect order...
in my dream symbology... (and I think that varies with everyone) birds represent freedom and dragonflies represent masculine transformation...
to me... the dream meant that
life, love is everlasting... the appearance of death is just that...
was it my brother? I think it was..
my journal is now so fat
that I have to weigh it down in order to do my monthly spreads. I was hoping to put two years into this book, but I might not make it...
I normally shoot it and crop the two page spread,
but I would have lost the integrity of the image if I had chosen to do that this month.
as always click on the images for detail.
my ingredients this month are: pen and ink, paper ephemera, crackle paint, H20's, pencil, walnut ink, acrylic paint, Lumiere paint, fabric, thread.
for stopping by, your comments are so appreciated.